一个人的生活【搬迁】

ｅｎｄ

2011-04-19T14:49:00.000+08:00

hey, for those who really love me SORRY
i choose to escape from everything LEAVE
i will go for another space for my BLOG
if u wan to know my new site, just ask XD
bye~ LOVEＹＯＵ　ｇｕｙｓ

Last drop

2011-03-18T19:25:00.001+08:00

oppss....is 2011 year and my blog had dead....
ermmm....which mean i will leave here and no more blog.....
okay....let make last two topic.....
one for the special one who alwis by my side
and onother one for NAIS one.....XD

Thank you

Dear special one,
Thanks for alwis be myside when i keep on pushing you away
Thanks for telling me that i can lay on you when i need you
Thanks for remember everything i told you
Thanks God that let me to meet you in my life
and i announce that you are in
and i promiss i wont push you away again
and i know you will see this
and i wanna tell you that i agree to maintain our frienship now and after
izzit too late to give you the answer after 3 years?
or you already forget what you had ask 3 years ago?
tell me if you still in =)

~~Apologize~~

~~Dear NAIS one,~~
~~i know you hurt now and so i am~~
~~im here to say sorry to you for what i have done~~
~~sorry that i spoilt the trust of us~~
~~sorry that i know too much kepo things and interupt your privacy~~

~~i know im wrong and can you forgive me?~~

~~if accept my apologise please accept this flower which called freesia~~
~~and this flower will show that im innocent and trust~~
~~to show im apologise with heart, you are allow to redeem one lolipop cake from me anytime~~
~~PEACE (-_-)v~~
FUCK OFF!!!!!!

lifeless

2010-11-29T06:16:00.000+08:00

life is tough

but i still live for life

stay tall to find the world that i born for

that day i sick

i hate the day most

it make me so suffer and lonely

i live with tissue and drama series

and i know this called alone

LIFELESS

recover but life stil havent change

i press SAVE AS and name it ALONE

hey frenz, sorry for SAVE AS

sorry for disappear

i might hav enough rest

thanks for still be there...

ALIVE

无意中

2010-11-16T04:45:00.000+08:00

无意中从他口中得知
原来你曾经安排~旅程

无意中才知道
原来你有用心~侧听

无意中才发现
原来你那么重视~友谊

抱歉~
我破坏了一切~拒绝
我以为那天我们的对话只是疯狂的假设
我不晓得你是很认真的
我以为那都是不会达成的建议

是我亲手丢掉了~信任

I Have a Lover - eng/korean lyrics.

2010-11-14T05:07:00.000+08:00

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=rXXWwZEQMaI&feature=player_embedded

아직도 넌 혼잔 거니 물어보네요

Ah-jikdo nun honja guh-ni, moo-ruh bo-nei-yo

You ask me why I’m still alone
난 그저 웃어요 사랑하고 있죠
nan keu-juh oo-suh-yo, sarang ha go itt-jyo

I just smile weakly 사랑하는 사람 있어요
sarang ha neun saram issuh-yo

I’m in love with someone
그대는 내가 안쓰러운건가 봐

Keu-dae neun nae-ga an-seu-ruh-oon-gun ga bwa

Yes I do have a lover
좋은 사람 있다면

Joh-eun saram issuh da myun

You look at me with worried eyes
한번 만나보라 말하죠

Han bun man na bora mal ha jyo

And tell me to meet someone nice

그댄 모르죠 내게도 멋진

Keu dae moh-reu jyo nae gei do muht-jin

But you never know
애인이 있다는걸

Ae-inn-ee itt-da-neun gul

I already have someone special
너무 소중해 꼭 숨겨두었죠

Noh-moo soh-joong hae ggok soom gyul doo attjyo

So precious that I hide inside
그 사람 나만 볼수 있어요

Keu saram na-man bol-soo issuh-yo

No one can see the man but me
내 눈에만 보여요

Nae noon ei man boh yuh yo

He is only visible to my eyes
내 입술에 영원히 담아둘거야

Nae eep sool ei youngwun-ee dam-ah-dool-goh ya

I will keep him inside forever
가끔씩 차오르는 눈물만 알고 있죠

Ga geum shik cha oh reu neun noon mool man, al-go-itt-jyo

Sometimes tears filling up my eyes says
그 사람 그대라는걸

Geu saram keu dae ra neun gol

You are the one I cherish
나는 그 사람 갖고 싶지 않아요

Na neun keu saram kat-go ship-ji an-a-yo

I don’t wanna have him
욕심 내지 않아요

Yok-shim nae ji an-a-yo

I don’t wanna be greedy
그냥 사랑하고 싶어요

Keu nyang sarang hago ship-uh-yo

Just let me love him the way i do
그댄 모르죠

Keu dae mo-reu-jyo

But you never know
내게도 멋진 애인이 있다는걸

Nae gei do mut-jin ae-in-ee itt-da-neun-gol

I already have someone special
너무 소중해 꼭 숨겨두었죠

No-moo so joong hae gok soom kyu doo ohtt-jyo
So precious that I hide inside

그 사람 나만 볼수 있어요

Keu saram na-man bol-soo issuh-yo

No one can see the man but me
내 눈에만 보여요

Nae noon ei man boy uh yo

He is only visible to my eyes
내 입술에 영원히 담아둘거야

Nae eep sool ei youngwun-ee dam-ah-dool-goh ya

I will keep him inside forever
가끔씩 차오르는 눈물만 알고 있죠

Ga geum shik cha oh reu neun noon mool man al-go-itt-jyo

Sometimes tears filling my eyes says
그 사람 그대라는걸

Geu saram keu dae ra neun gol

You are the one I cherish

알겠죠 나혼자아닌걸요, 안쓰러워말아요

al-getjyo na hon ja anin golyo, an seu ruh woh mal ah yo

I know, I am not alone, so don’t worry about me

언젠가는 그 사람 소개 할게요

Un jein ga neun keu saram so gei hal gei yo

Someday I’ll introduce him to you
이렇게 차오르는 눈물이 말하나요

Irokei cha-oh-reu-neun noon mool-ee mal-ha na yo

Can’t you see what these tears says
그 사람 그대라는걸

Keu saram keu dae ra neun gol

You are the one I cherish

happy bufdaee boy~

2010-11-14T03:51:00.000+08:00

那年。今年。。。。

我没庆祝您的生日。。

那以后呢？谁晓~

但还是祝你~生日快乐

12/11/2010

2010-11-12T11:44:00.000+08:00

morning bloggers....

who will be the first you miss after you wake up in the early morning?

i miss you *secret*

hometown flooded...

2010-11-03T02:31:00.001+08:00

Is happening again *roll my eye*

my hometown flooded.....haiz....

we can see from

http://www.bernama.com/bernama/v5/newsindex.php?id=540429

http://www.freemalaysiatoday.com/fmt-english/news/general/12309-floods-hit-perlis-and-kedah-kelantan-could-be-next

i still remember that year the water around.....

i still remember i got to see the mouse swimming....

but now im wondering...

wish it will be settle before reach my house......

take care dear family....God bless alwiz yea....

miss you guys....

pray that your family also fine....

i saw the picture from newpapar...

although 3 year pass never really contact...

so from here, i send da wish to you and also your family......
take care alwiz =)

梦

2010-10-23T02:08:00.000+08:00

你回来过

人家说：“日有所思，夜有所梦”
在梦里，我见到了你。
你似有话要说，时而又止。
看着你对我笑着，我好开心。
渐渐的，你越来越模糊，然后离去。

好想紧紧抱着你，不放手。
但你却还是像上次一样一声不响，
留下我一个人，面对那无法痊愈的伤口。
让疼痛把我抽醒，从眼里挤出血丝。

好想拨电话给你，就算一句吃饱了没。
但同样的电话，同样的号码，而那里头已不是你。
还记得那天最后一次打给你，还有说有笑，但你怎么说走就走？

现在的我，想你了。

今夜的梦，你还会来吗？
有你的梦连睡觉都会笑。
好想就酱，睡到永远，也甘愿。

lovely holiday

2010-10-18T03:31:00.002+08:00

Hi everyone,
I'm back from my lovely holiday.
Love it or Hate it??
either
I want to share my holiday to you guys
it's awesome man

From the very start,
I go diving at TIOMAN.
see lots of fish....
I swear I had addicted to it.
even there only 4 dive for the trip,
but it bright my life up...
During the trip,
I had try to start dive and games non-stop for 8 hour.
Damn tired.....

After this trip,
I straight go clubbing at ARENA and go back Hometown...

Following,
I went Penang Cruise with my leh cheh frenz...
We plan, we spend and we go.
It was the first time I sit Honda Esclipe,
the first time I gambble....
the first time I sea sick....
the first time I'm in cruise...
the first time i play monopoly in card....
We go with excited and back with lame...
but this never make us sad,
because there were most happy things when we spend the time together with doing nothing...

Continue was Thailand..
this time I was go with 2 strangers which was frenz's frenz...
but also include 3 poker frenz la..
what else we do there???
playing, eating, drinking, tiger show and massage...
what i can say is only one word CRAZY...
http://www.jasonmng.com/2010/10/thailand-hatyai.html?spref=tw

After this,
so Penang with parents...
And i would like to show off here is "MY FATHER IS RICH"
At this shopping trip We didn't bought anythings, but my father do.
He bought 4 watch in one time...
one for his worker and 3 for my mother....
here i can feel that my mother was the most happy woman at that time.

In here,
I would like to say
this was the most happy holiday i had even...
hope to done this agian and again...

The part missing in this holiday was i left out grandpa's grave...
without you in my holiday, I feel lonely, but don't worry.
I know how to take care myself.
From far, you can see that I hav lots of frenz...
they alwiz accompany me and make my life.
wish that you got your life too...GOD BLESS
....I miss you as usual...
I LOVE YOU

* i will update again this blog with photo...
p/s：send me the photo

ENJOY THE DAY>>>LOVE YOU GUYS

认真的幸福

2010-09-28T02:18:00.003+08:00

还记得他是这么写的“当你写下的文字，一上线，就属于公共财”

我很欣赏他，所以我决定与大家分享一些公共财。

当然放上线的原因是要给人看，给人懂。

虽然，不否认有时候当人家引用而得到的回应比原创多时，心里会不平衡。

心里会在想，他凭什么！！！

但，当一切变成回忆时，你再回想，当时的不甘也不过如此。

时间是最好的答案，但我们永远学不会。

我们要的永远不觉得多，有了一个，再要一个，但我们却不晓得我们得到的已经很多很多。

不知足的人不会晓得只要认真的拥有，就算只有一个，也比很多很多来得多。

现在的我知道认真的活着是种幸福。

没有在对的时间遇上对的人

2010-09-06T16:24:00.000+08:00

时间对了感觉对了人却错了

这个时间我遇见了你
可是我并没有爱上你
习惯了你的好
习惯了你的存在

在你身边有很自然的舒服
你霸道的让我对你有感觉
习惯了你的眼神
习惯了你给的疼爱

“再靠近一点点，我就跟你走”

而你给的只有。。

遗憾。。。

371125025109

2010-09-02T03:42:00.000+08:00

当我的心真的在痛
眼泪快要流下来的时候
我会赶快抬头看看
这片漆黑黑的天空
是否有你带给我的那一闪光
哪怕是一颗星星也好
告诉我你还在我身旁
我知道那天你离去留下了思念给我
我潇洒我不哭，但我不坚强
我努力的装作不伤心
告诉自己你并没有带走我的世界

原谅我执着责怪上天的不公平
把你带走的太早
我宁愿把自己弄疼都要紧捉这思念
原谅我那么固执
任性的讨厌这世界

我恨自己无能为力的让你离去
我恨自己当初想你被疼痛环绕也不想让你离开
我恨自己很想你

。。。。。。

2010-09-01T23:04:00.000+08:00

原来我从来没有痊愈

如果自闭可以解决问题

那我愿意一辈子与人群隔离

我还是不懂如何表达

我还是不懂如何释放

我想变成大家喜欢的样子

我要变成你所喜欢的样子

我为别人伪装自己的样子

再怎么努力

我只会觉得很累很累

好想离开

我真的不想辜负你们

但我没有所谓的坚强

我真的很努力

但我很无助

我真的不懂如何坚持

一个人生活逻辑

2010-09-01T04:19:00.000+08:00

在爱情的国度里

他说：“我们可看见骗子与傻子。”

我问他：“那你是骗子还是傻子？”

他只说：“浪子。”

心想【只有浪子不会是骗子也不会变傻子】

【一个人生活逻辑】

~~不要爱上我，我们只会互相伤害~~

七夕

2010-08-16T00:24:00.000+08:00

今天七夕情人节
而我怎么了？

没有星星
没有海浪
却多了一点点情绪

明白清楚感觉到
原来一个人也会寂寞

止

2010-07-07T15:41:00.000+08:00

是可而“止”

止为尽

所以没了

错了

2010-07-04T01:50:00.000+08:00

是你错还是我错？

是的，我错了~~

第一次我们的沟通方式

或许别人不懂`

但我看见了真心

望着你

我无言

我感动

我激动

心情无法平静下来

你的眼神

那还是那么尖锐

却多了点点笑容

而我笑了

谢谢

是神是仙

有机会我会克服我的胆怯

紧紧拥抱你

weaker's word

2010-05-26T01:34:00.000+08:00

that day we bcum friends and the story started be relate
i dun care how ppl said bout us since i trust our friendship
day going on and on and we sharing sum secret
and one day i found out that it different
im sorry i neglect to take good care of our frienship

nowaday
i will keep on looking at my phone
i like online and waiting you online
i knw sumthng wrong......

Sorry
im weaker

放弃

2010-04-28T02:14:00.000+08:00

听到不一样的声音
我以为我会相信

但原来不是不信
只是陌生人不会有信任

逃避了很久
不想勇敢面对

放空了很久
因为我明白知道

我在寻找
捉不到的未来

很失望自己的不理智
想要尝试不一样的期待

我放弃了
就像你放弃梦想一样

@@

2010-04-16T01:11:00.000+08:00

we are still young
we are still childish

mindset can make everythng change....

Air feel

2010-04-15T02:37:00.000+08:00

love to be alone is ME

YOU

treat me very good

YOU

giving hint

~without full sentences~ im waiting

ignore you

hurt you

LAST

you the one still warm me up

LAST

you make me do the right decision

LAST

i knw you are so important

NOW

i knw who the one

..........but is too LATE..........

i waste too much time to catch up

i waste too much time on others to get concern

SO NEAR YET SO FAR

SO FAR YET SO NEAR

just left THANKS YOU within us

and SORRY that i spoilt everythng

EVERYTHNG BREAK~

>.<|||

2010-04-03T16:07:00.001+08:00

Try not to become a person of success, but rather try to become a person of value
- Albert Einstein

@@

2010-04-01T11:58:00.000+08:00

worst to the worst....
life is so kidding...
you dont even knw wad happen next...

confident break?

2010-03-31T22:08:00.000+08:00

is disappointed again......
when i knw sumthng that i really care from others but not u....
i knw im problem gurls.....but it really hurt...

is disappointed again......
when you try hard but fall again.....
i knw that im childish....

wad a disappointed life...........
can i really chill and go again.....?

promiss

2010-03-29T18:30:00.002+08:00

you are special...i tell you before, but mayb you dun ever remember that...

but you alwiz disappointed me.....i thinks you dunno that......

i also tell you before "you are not SWEET at all".....

and i said i just want your concern.....

but you told me "if i dun care i wont even chat at all"

at that time, i was.....sweat@@.....i dunno wad respond should i gv..

i told myself....well this is the SPECIAL guys that you care....

mood down with disappointed disappointed disappointed .....

and here i wanna apologize.......SORRY

i dunno that you in hurt and face the worst problem...

i dunno that you had already try your best...

now i juz get the alone that you mean...

mayb nw i can understand your character at that time...

you nt that bad that i tot....jus the way u used to release....

happy that you WAKE UP.....

and so i promiss that stan tall.....

watching each other.....

day will be better n better.....CHILL alwiz....

stranger care

分手需要练习的

2010-02-23T01:50:00.000+08:00

谈起关于你的话题
终于可以不用缺席
甚至还表现得不再关心
从前你是伤的痕迹
现在不过是场回忆
忽远忽近

*我怕的是低潮来袭
这城市哪里够隐密
藏住我突然想哭的情绪
宁愿失去斗志勇气
好过和你冷战推挤
这样谁输得起

Chorus
原来分手是需要练习的
等时间久了会变勇敢的
你慢慢出走
我渐渐放手
这不就是
我们要的自由

Chorus2
原来分手是需要练习的
等伤口好了会变轻松的
海阔天空不残留一点痛
回头看怕懦弱
往前走怕坠落
但我一定能学会
在想你的时候不难过

请不要把分手变成练习题

nothing

2010-02-23T00:53:00.000+08:00

dear nothing,
here is better for me to write some opinion.
what i wanna to say is we have different thinking.
your thinking is more on happy go luck but not mine.
this doesnt mean that im not happy.
is just i thinks more further before i go done a thngs.
i dun thinks life is short so regret should nt be come after it.
every time, every moment, bad thinking in my mind is nt that always.
i just thinks the negative before the positive.
i always have the mindset that positive will be seen but negative no.
i need to avoid the happening before it happen.
if really cant avoid, at least i get prepare.
i really care my life.
i want a good life not only now but also furture.
everything will get after you give.

=)

2010-02-22T16:41:00.000+08:00

is time now
stop and start
u make the furture

shallow

2010-02-21T18:07:00.003+08:00

some time i give myself a good excuse

"im too young to handle this"

but if thinks deeper

im not too young,

just my world is too shallow

~~lazy alwiz make shit~~

梦

2010-02-21T16:23:00.002+08:00

有些东西失去了，该如何找回？

然而迷失了，星星会是所剩的指南针吗？

我后悔了。

我后悔没坚持我的梦。

梦没了，

开始变得不自我了。

是现实毁了我的梦。

很想报复的我无能为力。

我明白我要走的路，

所以我没努力阻止。

但是我渐渐发现

我没了（）（）

我该诉苦于谁？

期望的人吗？

陪伴的人吗？

努力的人吗？

不！！

期望会失望。

陪伴会失落。

努力会破灭。

我只能埋在心底。

告诉自己你失去梦，

所以你会在乎。

当你有一天得到时，

梦只不过如此。

笑容随梦而飞

有些话不该说出口=生活

break everything

2010-02-16T05:33:00.000+08:00

everyone got their night now......sweet and tight

i dunno what happen to me and im still awake here

i really try hard to be a part but everytime i fail

i break everything_____

im alwiz force myself to be better

am i wrong?? i alwiz asking myself this question and i get no answer

WTF what wrong with me!!! i really dunno......

i really dunno how to express my feeling____fucking idot

mayb i should be numb the whole life....

i should nt having any feeling to anyone anything anytime

what fault i changing and giving concern and sharing caring??

why i alwiz making myself in trouble?? suffering myself???

i lose my mind now......

i knw i should nt think it like that but i lose control tonight

u guys alwiz break me

the concern u guys gv r too heavy to me

u guys teaching me that trust again human r too far

i cant even touch it ____im hurting

value of a human cause everything

if you hav the value, u get everything u want

so i knw who am i.....i never ask for anythings

im unbalance but this is my life

for my luv part, it's complicated

already 21 year i born but i never ever cerebrate any v-day

relationship is weak to me

i dunno how contribute to each other

i alwiz hurt others-----

so i alwiz push other away

i do alwiz think that relationship such a trick to me

god alwiz joke

i knw im troble person

im alwiz make myself in troble

i knw every blame of mine cause everythng

im nt emo_____just i dunno how to espress myself

so avoid any troble to other....i rather be alone

~~my life = joke~~

EVERYTHNG

2010-02-09T04:46:00.002+08:00

try to write sumthng here---feel hate to wait

EVERYTHNG change faster, im already 21(-___-)

im also change but i define it as grown

nowaday i knw what mean stress, so i regret EVERYTHNG

EVERYTHNG is different

even my thinking----straight cahnge
it's hard for me to believe anymore

dun try to fix it cause it useless

there is no EVERYTHNG in the blog anymore

nobody will knw the truth

i hate to becum public topic

i prefer alone more den the care that make me stress

love also nt EVERYTHNG

no love no hurt i alwiz uphold this statement

love no more important in my life

love like nothing

i will keep EVERYTHNG in secret

never show never tell

showing off is useless

nobody understanding

whatever I DUN CARE

近朱者赤近墨者黑

2010-02-04T16:36:00.000+08:00

近朱者赤近墨者黑

不同的人拥有不同的想法和领悟。

你向去那一边就变成那一边的人。

不是说离开和放弃那些帮不到你的人，
而是让自己有个新改变和不在原地踏步。

不要让那些一直对你有期望的人失望。

countdown wish

2010-02-01T19:05:00.000+08:00

5 more hour to go

but i knw what i wish wont cum true

busy consider everythng

surprise is too far from me

i wish myself an early

HAPPEE BUFDAY_____

~~alone~~

谁是谁？

2010-02-01T02:41:00.000+08:00

我已经渐渐分不清

当同样的感觉出现

由不同的人带领

我该有同样的期待吗？

谁是谁

谁明白？

~~一个人好寂寞~~

2010-01-31T17:11:00.001+08:00

酱的我已好久没出现在群众了

我以为封闭了就会忘了

我以为你可以让我忘了

原来我会怀念

然后疼痛

而我只选择

沉默一个人

唯一的心情因你的忙碌沉淀

留下那漂浮的感觉

只想让自己堕落

因为这是我疼自己的方式

~~dunno chinese~~

going on

2010-01-26T09:11:00.000+08:00

sometime never say

because i realize

FRIENDSHIP

but doesn't mean nt hurt

sometime i really try

because i do hope

MIRACLE

but it just a dream

___whatever___

life still going on

~~heart still going on~~

day

2010-01-26T02:40:00.003+08:00

as usual i love the night

dark in mind with silence mood

nobody around and im alone

___thinking____

computer still on but setting away

watch you come and go

but never stop to be free

______waiting______

writing and telling as always

never sending but save in hardisk

file make my life alive

______document______

there is no way to go

it hard to switch on the light

better to ignore and huge the pillow tight

______escape_______

imagine the day

you ~~temperature melting my~~ heart

25/01/2010_2:03am

2010-01-25T02:45:00.002+08:00

Now, is in midnight 2:03am_ i just cum bac from outside.

I still awake, i do decide to write my first blog in 2010 as open ceremony.

As usual, im sitting in front of the computer,facing the room alone__thinking___

This few day, im quite busy with my brain.

Many thngs, many work, i still havent done and there also lots decision need me to make.

Beside, I also need to understand from many view many situation.

Once i steps wrong, it will effect everythng.

Life's tiring.

Sometime i feel that im so difference___syaitan___

sometime i try to break everything after being fix____whatever____

i really dunno hw a life can be____hopeless___

You are busy.

online_____away_____busy_____

i cant even stole ur time.

SORRY cum into my ear and my mind reasonable ACCEPT

my heart keep another secret______sad_____

Understanding.

Reason bring the answer with fact without what we want.

it make clear the unbalance of me.

You___work____busy_____related

so i keep my pissed feeling away

i know there is no agreement that u alwiz be there

Soul,

i want tell u what going on.

i need you to tell me what to do.

please gv me time___to share

i miss you_as usual_

~~stranger~~

2009-2010

2009-12-31T05:27:00.005+08:00

Life move on.....

here the end of 2009.....

preview...

We had an exciting 2009 ain’t we?

Let see...issues :

Obama Barrack is the first Black to be the President of the United State.
The death of Michael Jackson.
Transformer: Revenge of the Fallen.(Avatar better??)
Mongolia girl murdered and linked to Jib Jib
Power crisis in Perak
a mystery of Teoh Beng Hock

For me......

i have my fun life this year....

gain lots things.....

erm....

Visited many places (Redang.....luv)
Met many beautiful peoples (Iraq guys, beach boyzz, Gor Gor, Laogongzai)

See i got most special in this year......*happy*

i would like to thanks the person who buy me.....

thankx for the blue label...muackss

THANKZZZ GOD....

you bring me alots...

u life me up.....

Now.....i make my target for 2010...............

life should be better better

my target should be done one by one ....

slim (i know is weird to say that but i boleh try)
license for diving (advance)
success Shibian3
study in right way (i promiss i will change my lazy pattern)
~~OMnia 2...haha~~ *i got my blackberry curve d
Lumix (someone wanna sponser me?)(^___^)

travel oversea(at least singapora)
earn my own money
learn thai boxing
having a car (stable to go around)
~~having special 21's birthday party~~ *i get suprise and thanks a lots (sorry for no time)
cerebrate christmas at singapore
can i ask for boyfriends? (silence mode)

hope that i can success all the target....

all the best.....

2010.....I'm cuming....

。。。。。。

2009-12-26T03:14:00.000+08:00

那感觉是可耻的

是自己对自己的一种伤害

明知道却自甘堕落

~~是因为我们都还年轻吗？~~

心·泪·~~你的特别~~

Merry Christmas

2009-12-25T23:57:00.001+08:00

Christmas waves a magic wand over this world, and behold, everything is softer and more beautiful- Norman Vincent Peale

I do wish the special of this christmas

so i dream..........

Jesus come......

Jesus,

I have lots things to tell you

I need you to fix me up

Maybe you can just find a person for me to cry

Let me know that i'm still alive

Telling me that it's not true

Just i'm in the wrong position

do ask someone to hurt me

let me know that my blood can warm me up

show me the way to let me become myself

Jesus, i need you.....

I have my lonely Christmas this year

without any present

but it doesn't break me down =)

ANyway,

Jesus happy birthday......

love you...

HOHOHO Marry Christmas

家

2009-12-24T03:57:00.001+08:00

“夏说：秋接冬回春归家”

心在那，哪就是家

~~心还在吗？~~

space

2009-12-18T04:04:00.002+08:00

life gone.....

just left black and white

that day we feel the sama

i start to fill you in

~~stranger~~

space from you make me warm

i need to talk

~~mayb one day i will fix the box story~~

moment

2009-12-18T02:29:00.002+08:00

每当这个时候

~~心终会寂寞~~

我的天空

该由谁明白？

nobody know that it's pain

cause no one can be me

conversation

2009-12-17T03:45:00.001+08:00

my friend ask me

"will you feel tired with the way you treat others?"
"why you wanna to care this and that for the decision you make?"

but they don't understand

my mind

"i'm heartless and i have no feeling on the feeling"
"cause i do thinks there is a better solution avoid other to be hurt"

and i ask

"do my answer apply in your question?"

conclusion

*silence

starbuck with someone

2009-12-17T03:35:00.000+08:00

17 December 2009

11 anniversary of starbuck

i do wish someone can bring me go

may i?

love in starbuck

hold the emo in hand

2009-12-17T03:05:00.000+08:00

addicted to you

that why i'm keep waiting you in the middle of the night

~~stranger~~

it's complicated

word

2009-12-16T17:16:00.001+08:00

someone told me that "if you don't try, you won't miss"

but why i still prefer ~~ALONE~~

talent of human are nothing

2009-12-16T11:35:00.004+08:00

[才能不是天生的]
eveyone have their talent
the use of talent define how people judge on you
so please behave when you use your talent
the way you use will cause the death of your own

Everybody also an art themself
they way they use is their style
dun use your style to battle other style
cause you never ever know who will bit you down

what i gonna say is do remember the origin of you
human being are the same(nothing)
so dun try to do the things that laughing on you own
dun waste your time in showing off

离不开的伤害

2009-12-15T21:07:00.007+08:00

夜里有两行逃离不了的泪/这是我喊不出名字的伤悲/

梦里有一场伤心欲绝的画面/照着你的剧本反复上演/

伤害我，你快乐吗？/我知道我只能自问自答/
你总是几句没有诚意的话/就要我把恐惧放下/
伤害我，你快乐吗？/我知道我只能自问自答/
你还是一样外表如此潇洒/我独自受惩罚受惩罚

——歌曲《伤害我，年快乐吗？》

stories

2009-12-14T04:46:00.006+08:00

Recently,
i seldom showing my word in blog...
it seem im so busy....
it seem im changing myself....
it seem im leaving emo life.....

and

what i gonna say is im still alone...
even he is calling me "lXXXO" but he not even hold me tight....
even he is telling me that "i XXX you" but it just a sound from mouth......

there is also someone who saying that im hurting him before
and i was OMG, when i done that???i have no idea......

but

another thing i wanna say is we close than before
he have his life and i have mine (happy ending)
we are stranger with open hearted
we talk more often.....
i do hope you take me in.....

last,

i do clearly state that he is special in my life....
until now he keep become better in my mind.....
im very happy that you here.....thanks

even
boys like girls....
two is better than one....
but i more prefer ONE
one malaysia

warm word

2009-11-24T13:28:00.004+08:00

somethings run over my mind......
telling me that i do need a hug to get warm.....
somebody will always be there for me....
thankz everyone who saw my word and trying to give me a hug.....

smile

2009-11-23T02:21:00.002+08:00

There is a question run over my mine....."do i happy?"
shit!!i have no answer on it....
everytime i smile, i will ask myself..."izzit i smile because i'm happy?"
there is also still question mark..........arghh.....
everytime word from my heart will remind silence......until the end
you know what...the world is dark in colour.....
when you treat other honestly, there is the feeling of hurt coming afterward
In my theory is "if you didn't touch it you won't get hurt"
..............so......i'm still in my own world.......ALONE.....
...back off from me if you intention to apply those feeling to me!!!!
the care from others is too dangerous to get hurt.......
i will rather to choose lonely better than caring.....at lease no tear.....

decision making

2009-11-17T15:08:00.004+08:00

Those day, someone telling me that there is no right or wrong....the correctness of the decision is judge by the time it make...if you make the decision in the right time, the decision will consider right.....i know i learn a lots....i know i become more realistic... i know i am changing but this consider grown up, maybe ....no one will make the conclusion until the end.....there is lots of people talking about me right now, i know that....but if you are me, what will you do? How many people can you make them keep their mouth shut? i don't thinks you can make better than me...If you ask me whether this statement i make is to tell those people, i may loudly tell you that YES I AM....

...............

2009-11-09T02:14:00.000+08:00

some word is use to keep but not to say

Holla holla

2009-11-08T22:27:00.004+08:00

Baby
I know you're hurting right now. I'm sorry.You are holla holla at girls but it should not be me. I know you love me like no one can and you will be my superman if i close the eyes and lets you take my hand but baby i can't.We are different. I'm not believe in love and heartless but I'm happy that you promise you'll be there everyday but baby there are many things showing that we not belong to each others. Yea they are right, she sweet, she kind, she jokes, she love you but she gonna hurt you like no one does. So, forget her smile and out of love. She don't know what love is and she just failed the test.She do make you blooding all the night. See, she isn't perfect as u want. So you just leave her behind. You can start all over and just press rewind cause she can't rise your lamboghini. Do you hate me? I guarantee you baby, I'm not the one you need. You holding you right and you can change your plans. All you got to do is leave me. I'm Chinese baby. I'm gonna leave my superman.

I MISS YOU

stranger

2009-11-03T18:17:00.003+08:00

a story start when she was tired
she feel tired when he start running in her mind
those feeling hold for 2month then they started relate
the knowing of each other is used to solve her tiring
there are conversation between them
ya is just a stranger conversation but its warm
and yesterday he is in relationship with her
she can feel the happiness come from him
and a word that he said "im so sayang her"
she know that he is good partner
thanks you my stranger(^____^)

Down

2009-10-29T00:24:00.003+08:00

days should be dark.not all the things can be change as what u wan. u try n u lost again n again. mayb it faith but it still mayb u really stupid.u dint hav a strong basic. my heart pain but the days still will go on with blood. no one really knw u well. no one can b partner for sharing. later on i keep a lots of secret. in that time i may look gud, alwiz in smile but act im sad. i totally lost but u still need to continue the life and its call suffer life...........................................getting DOWN........

2009-10-09T13:40:00.004+08:00

after stay in room for 2 week
never ever step out from the room except exam
finally i get release........
i finish my exam(happyhappy)smilehaha..this is my table after war
messy messy with paper, book.....

from the sidenw is time to clean n having my HOLIDAY
i'm coming

wanted

2009-10-08T14:36:00.002+08:00

lay at the beach,
hear the wave come and go,
watch the night scene,
lit a cigarette，
having some liquor,
it feel so good.........
i want a relax life

sharing

2009-10-07T21:02:00.001+08:00

每个人的身边都有个不是男朋友（女朋友）的男朋友（女朋友)

但是，为了什么原因你们没能在一起？
也许他为了朋友之间的义气，不能追你。
也许为了顾及家人的意见，你们没有在一起。
也许为了出国深造，他没有要你等他。
也许你们相遇太早，还不懂得珍惜对方。
也许你们相遇太晚，你们身边已经有了另一个人。
也许你回头太迟，对方已不再等待
也许你们彼此在捉摸对方的心，而迟迟无法跨出界线。

不过即使你们没在一起，
你们还是保持了朋友的关系。
但是你们心底清楚，
对这个人，你比朋友还多了一份关心。
即使不能跟他名正言顺的牵着手逛街，
你们还是可以做无所不谈的朋友。

他有喜欢的人，你口头上会帮他追，
心里却不是很清楚你是不是真的希望他追到。
他遇到困难时，
你会尽你所能的帮他，
不会计较谁又欠了谁。
男女朋友吃醋了，
你会安抚他们说你和他只是朋友，
但你心中会有那么一丝的不确定。

每个人这辈子，
心中都有过这幺一个特别的朋友，
很矛盾的行为。

一开始你不甘心只做朋友的，
但久了，突然发现这样最好。
你宁愿这样关心他，
总好过你们在一起而有天会分手。
你宁愿做他的朋友，
彼此不会吃醋，才可以真的无所不谈。

特别是这样，
你还是知道，
他永远会关心你的。
做不成男女朋友，
当他那个特别的朋友，
有什么不好呢？

你心中的这个特别的朋友...? 是谁呢？

很多的感情，
都因为一厢情愿，
最后连朋友都当不成了
常常觉得惋惜，
可惜一些本来很好的友情
最后却因为对方的一句喜欢你，
如果你没有反应，这一段友情似乎也难以维持下去，
这也难怪有些人会因此不肯踏出这一步。
因为这就像是一场赌注，
表白了之后不是成了男女朋友，
要不就连朋友都当不成了。
有些事不是你能预料的，或许对方不在意，
你们还可以是朋友，但却已经不如从前的好.......
如果，你的身边也有一个这样的朋友，
尝试给以他一些暗示。。。。
这样，就算是误会了，
也仍有挽回到余地。。。。。。。
勇敢地踏出这一步吧！

exam mood?

2009-10-06T20:56:00.003+08:00

i have my lonely study tonight
its hard to explain the feeling
i work and i fell lonely
time keep going
my hand keep moving
shit im typing on keyboard
arghhhh.....exam is tomorrow!!!!
what am i doing now!!!!

恋

2009-10-06T19:20:00.003+08:00

那一瞬间的美丽

我很迷恋

iwantsNOBODYNOBODYNOBODYbutu.mystranger

addiction MCD

2009-10-04T18:59:00.002+08:00

i want
MCD
im lovin it
stress stress with exam
stress with MCD
im hungry
bring me gooooooooooooooo

stranger

2009-10-04T15:57:00.004+08:00

your life
your story
faith in chance
im sentences of your storyi do wish im key word of the sentences

stranger love

2009-10-03T00:30:00.004+08:00

陌生的生活
忙碌的人群
路边的镜子认出了我
而我却忘了自己

付出与得到

2009-09-06T13:16:00.004+08:00

在我生活里
我会努力

在我努力里
我为了学会
我为了课业
我为了友情

但我在爱情里
我无故缺席了
我承认我会寂寞
我承认我想依赖

但我更相信我要的生活
所以抱歉咯
我用我自私的性格
利用寂寞换取我要的

这些没有对与错
只有付出然后得到

在雨天里遇见彩虹·我们

2009-09-06T13:08:00.002+08:00

虽然没人体谅我们有雨天
但我们相信雨后会有彩虹
就为那瞬间
我们一起有梦
together努力

happy come alone with you
你决定我们

“它”

2009-09-03T02:42:00.006+08:00

our heart becum heavy days to days
......we sick.......

是“它”让我的生活变质了
“它”是我在乎的
因为“它”
我懂我必须牺牲
可是“它”
让我想道歉
很抱歉让你们接触“它”
很抱歉让“它”影响你们
很抱歉让你们每天都有惊喜
很抱歉让你们变得不开心

你们是不可取代的
是你们让我有信心走下去
对不起是我唯一能对你们说的
sorry

flu

2009-08-29T15:23:00.002+08:00

the days
come n go
the days
i spend

it's LONG LONg long long long
_________________ _ _ _

sorry i'm BACK
i'm flu
back in flu.....

in heart......
feel so blood....ing

my heart's flu

sadsadsadsadsad

holiday word

2009-06-11T16:10:00.002+08:00

nw still holiday.....nw at butterworth....(my aunty house)nw im boring.....waitting to go penang....(my papa is having his operation nw)haiz.....sad season......i will update sum interesting post later went i go bac malacca.....bcuz i need to collection pic 1st.......i will tell hw my holiday go on....hehe...erm.......i pass my subject......finally....i gain after i put a lot work in to it...thanx god....
oh yea.....i wan wish sumone(yu wei happy bufday)hehe.....paiseh paseh....hope u c it.....haha....k la stop here.....take care all my college frenz......n hope to meet up with my hometown frenz.....

nitez

2009-06-11T00:04:00.001+08:00

my holiday~im tired
hard for me to upload my blog.....
so just wanna said gud night here......

notic

2009-06-08T09:23:00.003+08:00

rushing life.....
im holiday nw but im tired...
i juz cum bac frm Pulau Redang(i will upload pic after)
after that i go for debate tournament event
nw im waiting to board....
hey......im going back hometown
c yea...who is at hometown???

2night

2009-06-02T14:13:00.006+08:00

REDANG im cum+ing 2night
wait for me......
go snokering

so HAPPY now

because tonight will be the night that i will fall for you
over again
dont make me change my mind
i will least to c another day
MY REDANG

tag frm alex

2009-06-02T14:04:00.004+08:00

1. Besides your lips , where is the favorite spot to get kissed ?

neck

2. How did you feel when you woke up this morning?
shit!!y i wake up so late again
3. Who was the last person / people you took a photo with?
forget jor
4. Would you consider yourself spoiled?
haha.....will i??
5. Will you ever donate blood?
thinks before...but x done
6. Have you ever had a best friend who was of the opposite sex?
yup
7. Do you want someone to be dead?
no
8. What does your last text message say?
kk
9. What are you thinking right now?
redang
10. Do you want someone to be with you right now?
if sumone wan to be with me sure i wan wad
11. What was the time you went to bed last night?
430am
12. Where did you buy the tee you are wearing now ?
thailand
13. Is someone on your mind right now ?
yes
14. Who was the last person who text you ?
Alex child
Five Lucky Person to do this quiz...
i dont thinks sumone sholud be so luckly

爱

2009-05-31T17:40:00.005+08:00

我恨感觉的出轨
我恨感觉的背叛
我恨感觉的支配
我恨捉不住的感觉

故事是这么写的
什么是爱？
你懂吗？
相爱
然后互相伤害
你想疼爱她
你却伤了他

明知道我不该爱你
为什么好像又联系
我也曾决心想忘记
一转眼偏又想起你
明知道我不该想你
为什么好像又回忆
我也曾决意想忘记
一转眼偏又惦记你

恨你给我的戏让我有了感觉

tennis paper

2009-05-28T18:43:00.006+08:00

29/05 my last paper
i suppose to score
but
i had only few notes
wad should i study??
argghh.....
i know to play TENNIS
so wad??
i still need teory
Dear God please help me....
i need ur wish
i need ur support
I NEED U

leo desmond

2009-05-28T16:42:00.006+08:00

i wan introduce my doodle
i done it when im in my class
this doodle prove that im nt listening the class
sorry sir im nt intention to do so,
juz because i cnt control myself.....
this is LEO DESMOND
he is one of my lecture
he teach me cotract law
i done this doodle is because......
he look like my grandpa.......
hahahaha.......im too boring....

prison break

2009-05-28T15:58:00.006+08:00

finally come to the ending
prison break
a nice movie from the beginning
but it seem boring after and after
hahahahaha but i like it
in this movie hav a damn cool guy
omg...he had blue eye and gud body....
Micheal J. Scotfield
main actror
he heart Sarah with tough love
Sarah
main actress
character as a druggy with a doctor brain
but ending with Micheal Scotfield dead
nt fair nt fair nt fair...hahahaha
T-back
wow...unexpected guy....
he really is a gud actor
he like to betray others
had a pity life
but he had president brain
his familly change his latest life

i love this movie

lovelovelovelovelovelovelovelovelovelovelovelovelovelovelovelovelovelovelove
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夜·空

2009-05-27T03:09:00.009+08:00

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...........................................................................我失魂了

迷茫点

2009-05-27T02:41:00.005+08:00

我的缺点是很烂
可是我还是很努力改革
我以为我做到了
才发现自己比想象中更糟
我把时间从不正常反转回来
再把自己推向正常人的生活

我若无其事的生活
过着最安全的生活方式
学着习惯自己想追求的
我以为我得到了
才发现和那世界的差距还很远
我把时间都留给自己创造
再逼自己努力努力不断努力

到了夜晚
我就是变形金刚
开始迷茫
觉得自己变得不认识了
总觉得自己做得不够好
然后再责怪自己把机会搞砸了
就开始放纵自己
赖着床躲在家
过着没有灵魂的日子
连讲话都会觉得很烦
原谅我就是酱【自闭】
因为我是怪卡

我茫了当依赖变得不重要

BATgurl

2009-05-25T19:47:00.004+08:00

Omg@.@" bat inside my house
where it came from??
fairytale?
Would the story be relate to me?
erm...sumthng like....after i kissing it..
then it change into batman and ask me be his gf....
and we will be together forever?
or
when the time i chase it out of my house ......
i get bite then i bcum batgurl.....
and
i safe the world......??
lolz..i thinks i really thinks too much d.
nw the problem for me is....
hw can i put the BAT out of my house??

tag by FATFAT

2009-05-25T17:15:00.005+08:00

幸福点点名遊戲規則回答下列問題，並貼到自己的網誌or報台寫完後，自己多加一個問題然後傳給十個人，可以传给被点過的人，被你点到的人你要去跟他說，我点到你了。寫完後去跟点到你的人說「我寫完了」不可以不寫喔，不然幸福就會跑掉喔!
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1.我的大名 : 林智琦
2.我的生日 : 89年02月02日
3.誰傳給你的 :黄家豪
4.說出五個好朋友 : Erene, Jane, JouWin, YuWei, ChenQiang
5.生日想要得到什麼禮物 : BMW 5 series
6.近期開心的是 : 自己的转变
7.近期壓力大的是 : 努力却看不到结果
8.未來想做什麼啊 : 律师
9.有沒有喜歡的人 : 没有，没必要
10.同學會要回去找老師嗎 : 有的话要
11.跟誰出去最好玩: LIM SHIN TSANN
12.如果你的兩個好友吵架了 : 尽量逃离中间人的宿命
13.跟情人出去最想去哪 : 有意义的地方
14.聖誕節要做啥 : 去新加坡闲逛
15.最想跟誰過聖誕節 : 不一定
16.有沒有起床气 : 有
17.有幾個兄弟姐妹 : 3个
18.最喜歡的一只歌(女生的) : 秘密【蓝又时】
19.最喜歡的一只歌(男生的) : 我听见有人叫你宝贝【林建辉】
20.喜歡什麼顏色: 黑
21.上廁所會不會先沖水 : 多数不会
22.愛不愛我 : 你想太多了
23.喜歡男生還是女生 : 凭感觉
24.最想大聲說什麼 : 我真的有努力！！
25.半夜敢不敢自己上廁所 : 为什么不敢？？lolz
26.上廁所會不會脫褲褲 : 你是猪吗？
27.誰很欠打 : 说话没经过大脑的人
28.現在很迷什麼 : 潜水
29.睡相很差 : 个人看法咯
30.現在的時間 : 05：32pm
31.是否痛恨傳給你此卷的人 : 还好
32.體重多少: 肥婆的重量
33.今天天氣 : 闷热
34.你懷孕了嗎 : 不可能
35.你若中樂透最想做什么 : 赚钱
36.大學生一定要玩的活動 : 浪费时间吹水
37.想不想游泳：想
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【点名人物】
不想点，想做的人就做吧！！
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1.是誰傳給你這份問卷的 :Fatfat
2.你們認識多久呢 : 有一年了吧
3.你覺得他(她)對你來說很重要嗎 :朋友一个
4.你與他(她)的關係是 : 朋友
5.請問他(她)的興趣是 : 粘老婆
6.你覺得他(她)的個性如何 : 幼稚
7.他(她)在你心目中是幾分 : 无法衡量
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＊睡覺前第一件事 : 用枕头盖脸
＊起床前第一件事 : 开电脑
＊你的偶像是: 不平凡的人
＊你喜歡的季節 : 没有特别喜欢，因为马来西亚只有一种天气
＊你打工過嗎 :有
＊你想去的國家 : 英国
＊你討厭什麼樣的個性 : 自以为是
＊你常哭嗎 : 不会
＊你常笑嗎 : 是的
＊去玩時喜歡一個人去嗎 :不喜欢
＊是假日時你都睡到幾點 : 睡到自然醒
＊今天的天氣是（晴雨陰）: 闷热
＊朋友和情人你會選擇 : 不想选
＊機會和命運你會選擇 : 机会
＊你很自戀嗎 : 不会
＊這問卷多不多 : 多
＊要怎樣才能讓自己過的好一点 :相信自己
＊喜欢吃什么 : 香蕉糕
＊喜歡吃冰嗎 : 喜欢
＊現在幸福嗎 : 幸福
＊最在乎哪幾個朋友 : 平等
＊房間裡最重要的東西是什麼：电脑
＊最常夢到什麼 : 不做梦
＊男人精神出軌要不要原諒他 : 他是正常的
＊你认为人生的意义是什么 : 活出自己
＊你知道吗？（看你们怎么回答！）: lolz
＊什么时候最讨厌我 : 我是指？？
＊向往出世抑或入世，向往道家抑或儒家？ :什么东东？
＊你喜欢吃什么蛋糕？ : icecream
＊请问这个游戏可以停止了吗？: 可以
＊喜欢沙丁鱼吗^^？ : 还好咯
＊IQ/EQ哪一个比较高？ :EQ
＊電腦还是手機重要？ : 都重要
＊比较喜欢睡觉还是玩？ : 都要平衡
＊Friendster 还是 Facebook ? : 都有
＊现在最希望什么?: 希望明天会更好
＊累了吗？ : 还好
＊If you just leave 1 minute..what you’ll do?? : 等死
＊你们觉得我如何？:不懂
＊爱情的定义是？: 互相依赖
＊哭的时候最需要什么？：依靠
＊梦想（杀人强奸打劫偷窃什么东西都可以）：把自己变更好

沉默的瞬间_版本2

2009-05-25T16:59:00.004+08:00

在沉默的瞬间我才发现爱是寂寞的

第一次接触坐下开会遇见彼此时

外向的我内向的你到还只是陌生人

那时我们一切都很纯粹

当时的我还不知道

未来的时间里

我会爱上了你你却只爱着她

在电脑里我们不分彼此俩人孟不离焦焦不离孟

我们总是在msn里胡闹

一起谈天说地一起分享

其实我知道外向的我喜欢上你但却没发现你的视线离不开她

一星期后你对我诚实

而我我开玩笑地对你说我不介意

你哦了一声我们又开始沉默

沉默的瞬间我第一次失去你

剩下的日子只有寂寞陪在我身边

我常常若无其事生活

渐渐的我搞不清楚我跟你是什么关系

但我常常上线　对着你的讯号发呆但是我却不敢打扰你

我以为只要我沉默的陪着我就会忘记你

那夜裡　我努力假装笑着　听你说喜欢的她

当下我却像被打了一拳

那天晚上我明白了我们的关系已变沉默

我开始不回你的讯息沉默的瞬间我受伤了你却不懂

我想写信告诉你我的感觉我似发了疯的乱写

但是清晨从文字中醒来我却胆怯的收了起来

我坐在电脑前对着荧幕我想到你说的你们

我心里的话也开不了口了

时光匆匆

我准备对你诚实要求改变要个答案

深夜我们聊到很晚

我将我们连起来一边是你一边是我

我决定打破沉默

我跟你说了实话你说了抱歉你只是个坏人

然而我又沉默了

我假装懂了眼睛却红了

在我面具里我哭了

我逃走了你也黯然地离开

我給的一切　你不能要

你給的一切　却不是我想要的

原來爱一个人是不能割舍的　在沉默的瞬間我寂寞了　

你·我·他_故事_我爱你

你选择把我留下

沉默的瞬間_版本1

2009-05-25T04:54:00.006+08:00

原來在沉默的瞬間

我才發現愛一個人與被一個人愛一樣寂寞

第一次拿起相機　按下快門　拍下你們時
外向的芬　內向的佳　都還只是高中生　
那時我們一切都很純粹　
當時的我還不知道
未來的幾年
你愛上了我　我卻愛上了她

大學時我和佳、芬　三人孟不離焦　焦不離孟
我們總是一起在圖書館讀書
一起騎腳踏車　一起拍照
其實我知道　外向的芬是喜歡我的　但我的視線卻是看著佳

畢業時佳要回香港了　
佳開玩笑問我　可以為我留下來　
我看了芬一眼　我無法開口
沉默的瞬間我第一次失去你

剩下的日子　只有活潑的芬陪在我身旁
常常到我家做飯　
漸漸的　　我也搞不清楚　我跟芬是什麼關係
但我常常收到　佳的信
但是我卻不敢回信
我以為只要看著眼前的芬　我就會忘記佳

一天夜裡　我收到一封信　佳說自己有喜歡的人
當下我卻像是被打了一拳
那天晚上　我親了芬　我們關係開始混淆了
我沒回信給佳　沉默的瞬間　我可能同時傷害兩個人

我想寫信告訴佳也想寫信告訴芬我發了瘋亂寫
但是清晨從一堆廢紙中醒來我不敢寄出去
我在暗房　沖洗照片　我看著你們兩人的照片
我心裡的話說不出口
時光匆匆

我準備開一個攝影展
佳在電話上告訴芬你會過來

深夜我佈置展覽到很晚
我將兩副大照片掛起來
一副是佳　一副是芬
我決定打破沉默
我跟芬說了實話
芬哭了
我們擁抱
突然佳走了進來
我轉頭看到佳
佳眼睛也紅了

在兩副笑的燦爛的照片前　
我們都哭了

佳跑走了　芬也黯然的離開
你給的一切　我不能要
我給的一切　她不會知道
原來被一個人愛　跟愛一個人　再沉默的瞬間　一樣寂寞

三个人的故事是寂寞的

心感染了麻痹症

2009-05-25T04:33:00.004+08:00

被冻结的心
再也没温度了
它期待突然的停电
让他重温【感觉】
有一天奇迹出现
电流被中断了
心因此融化了
这时心才发现
它已经残废
再也感应不到温度

我/残废的心/解药/是谁？

颓废

2009-05-25T04:24:00.004+08:00

天从亮转黑
我以为我不再期待
黑暗不再是我的最爱
我才发现深爱是不能割舍的
不动不理不代表忘了
我看见自己的转变
可是为什么到了某个时候
我却还是深深体会
那颓废的我

我只想变更好

CAT here。。。lolz

2009-05-24T19:33:00.005+08:00

yes i did it.this is my work.
why i did this? i got no answer.
this gurl is sexy.....
there is an ears on her head....
she had big breast....
after i finish draw,i found sumthng
this gurl look alike cat.....
OMG i miss her, CATHERINE!!
i muz b sumthng wrong!!

我爱涂鸦已是不真实的梦

【考试的寂寞】

2009-05-23T01:27:00.004+08:00

我的杰作
名字为【考试的寂寞】
懂得越多
就越寂寞

寂寞交换幸福

人生有几多的十年

2009-05-13T11:16:00.002+08:00

【人生有几多的十年】
？？？？？？？？？？
我不再什么都
我不要黑白生活
我不想只过就算的生活
我要追求
就算我对世界很不满
争取我要的
不要跟随你定的
我要努力过我想要的生活
我的路还很长
我一定会看见我的阳光

幸福的代价是辛苦

加油别放弃

2009-05-12T20:33:00.004+08:00

考试的朋友_______一起加油吧！
我们一定能做到
别放弃！！

她是我们的偶像

和她看齐

只有努力
没有不能

交易

2009-05-10T23:01:00.003+08:00

请不要怀疑
请不要指责
在我的立场
我的选择只是个要求
割舍一些喜好
换取飞翔的翅膀
我认为只是换取所需
是场值得的交易

我要飞向未来
我的不一般生活

mama‘s day

2009-05-10T22:54:00.002+08:00

just a simply notes.....
thankyou for everythng you done for me.
thankyou giving me a health family.
thankyou for teaching me to protect myself.
just a word to describe you and me
'no you, no me'
mayb im not good enough
mayb im nt perfect
but i wil try to do the best
so, happy always......
and always take care^^

忍

2009-05-06T01:18:00.006+08:00

忍耐是种美德
有些人天生就有
有些人不管怎么教都不会

美德是有底线的
当到了边沿
你就要选择跳下山崖
还是选择反击
选择权在于你！

美德是有好与坏
就像谎言分为善意还是恶劣的
当执行美德他人会欣赏就是善
相反的如果他人不懂得欣赏那就恶

所以笨蛋要加油过开心生活
不要太迁就他人

体谅是你的优点但也会是缺点
我就是喜欢你的优点

2 article

2009-04-30T10:14:00.006+08:00

1st article said:

yupp@.@"this is my pity leg

this proof that im a weak person

that why i need sum one to protect
where my ROMEO?

2nd article said:
erm....wad to say?
yupp im hurting myself....so wad?
it can be remove with time....
juz leave it.....

不办可怜
不博同情
因为我是一个人

更好

2009-04-29T20:10:00.003+08:00

告别之前
迎接之后
我相信我会做得更好
明天我来了
请接受我吧！

我能克服别人对我的眼光吗？
我相信努力的精神

计划

2009-04-29T01:52:00.002+08:00

那天你说了计划
而我打了个算盘
我们有那个能力撑着吗？
这会是生活的一部分吗？

我不想平凡的活着
我想不一样

tag2 from AUGUST

2009-04-28T01:00:00.003+08:00

001. Real Name : Lim Zee Chee
002. Nickname(s) : CheemiL / Chee-by
003. Age : 20
004. Zodiac Sign : Aquarius
005. Male or Female : Female
006. Elementary : SRJK(C) Keat Hwa(H)
007. Middle School: SMK Keat Hwa
008. High School : no.im straight go colloge
009. College School : MMU
010. Hair colour : Black
011. Long or Short : long
012. Loud or Quiet : both
013. Sweats or Jeans : Jeans
014. Phone or Camera : Phone with camera
015. Health Freak : im FAT
016. Drink or Smoke : prefer drink
017. Do you have a crush on someone : i dun thinks so
018. Eat or Drink : drinks more than eat
019. Piercings : No
020. Tattoos : No but thinks before
021. Social or Anti-Social: Social
022. First Piercing : no
023. First Relationship : i lost my trust
024. First Best Friend : Kit Jou Win
025. First Award : i dun feel that called award,so im still aim_ing
026. First Kiss : with boy
027. First Pet : turtle which kill by my grandpa
028. First Big Vacation : nope
029. First Love at first sight: comfortable
030. First Big Birthday : with my frenz

currently
049. Eating : i wan laksa
050. Drink : caremal macchiato
051. Excitement Level : so so, nothing special
052. I’m about to : having presentation and final exam
053. Listening to : i prefer quite
054. Plan for today : release myself
055. Waiting for : caring from someone
056. Energy Level : stil need to charge
057. Thinking of someone: yes, he always in my mind
058. Want kids? : da road is stil far to hav a kids
059. Want to get married?: no.freedom is more important now
060. Careers in mind? : money money

Which is better in the boy/girl you like
068. Lips or Eyes? : Eyes
069. Romantic or Funny? : romantics
070. Shorter or Taller? : tall but not too tall, comfortable to hug
071. Protective or Caring? : Caring
072. Romantic or Spontaneous? : spontaneous
073. Nice Stomach or Nice Arms?: stomach
074. Sensitive or Loud? : balance
075. Hook-up or Relationship? : Relationship
076. Trouble Maker or Hesitant? : Hesitant
080. Lost glasses or contacts : nt understand
081. Ran away from home : thinks before but i dun dare
082. Held a gun/knife for self defence: knife
083. Killed somebody : may i?
084. Broken someone’s heart : mayb
085. Been arrested : nope
087. Cried when someone died : yes i did it

Do you believe in
089. Yourself : yup
090. Miracles : no....to far from me
091. Love at first sight: yes....i should believe it.
092. Heaven : where is it?
093. Santa Claus : no.....
094. Tooth Fairy : no......
095. Kiss in the first date: i do believe
097. Is there someone you would want to be with right now? : yup
098. Are you seriously happy with where you’re in life now? : nt really
099. Do you believe in God? : no, i belive more in myself
100.Post as 100 truths and tag 10 people: alex.kpc.csw.gintee.jialing.jane.cathrine.rine.ryan.samantah

一个人的生活 【搬迁】

ｅｎｄ

Last drop

lifeless

无意中

I Have a Lover - eng/korean lyrics.

happy bufdaee boy~

12/11/2010

hometown flooded...

梦

lovely holiday

认真的幸福

没有在对的时间遇上对的人

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一个人生活逻辑

七夕

止

错了

weaker's word

放弃

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Air feel

>.<|||

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confident break?

promiss

分手需要练习的

nothing

=)

shallow

梦

break everything

EVERYTHNG

近朱者赤近墨者黑

countdown wish

谁是谁？

going on

day

25/01/2010_2:03am

2009-2010

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Merry Christmas

家

space

moment

conversation

starbuck with someone

hold the emo in hand

word

talent of human are nothing

离不开的伤害

stories

warm word

smile

decision making

...............

Holla holla

stranger

Down

wanted

sharing

exam mood?

恋

addiction MCD

stranger

付出与得到

在雨天里遇见彩虹·我们

“它”

flu

holiday word

nitez

notic

2night

tag frm alex

爱

tennis paper

leo desmond

prison break

夜·空

一个人的生活【搬迁】